Wow, it's been nearly a month. I had surgery October 1. I wasn't prepared for the weeks between then and now, I'm not sure I could have been. I am happy to say that I am now on the other side of pain for the most part. Right now I'm frustrated from my lack of energy, and have honestly come pretty close to self-pity. Today I decided that it is time to dust off my boots and get back to life. I've been through some stuff for sure, but who hasn't. My God is big enough and close enough, he knows. So God, what now?